A letter for my girl

Savannah,

As I lie here waiting for you to soothe yourself to sleep (so I can sleep), I'm reflecting on how much I love you. Your smile is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. My heart floods with joy when you laugh. I'm overwhelmed that you seem so enthralled with me and find happiness when your eyes find mine. You delight in being near me and long to hear my voice. What kind of love is this?! And then it hit me, like a ton of bricks. Could this be the love Christ has for his children? For me? That He delights in us when we delight in Him? That He's glad to shower us with His love and His mercy and His blessings? How much stronger is the love He has for me, stronger than the strongest love I have ever felt, the love that I have for you, my baby, my Savannah. "Amazing love, how can it be?" " Oh love that will not let me go!" Those lyrics which have always held such promise now contain such power and strength.


Savannah, you are the most awesome thing that has happened to me. The anticipation of you brought excitement to me and your daddy and brought us closer as we prepared to be parents. Holding you in my arms for the first time brought me unspeakable joy. Then you taught me patience in the middle of the sleepless crying nights. You taught me to appreciate your dad as he helped with you as if he had years of practice. You made me realize the sacrifices my own parents made for me and mulitplied the love I already had for them. But most amazingly, you have started to break down the walls of fear I've had in my heart for years over having a daughter and showed me that God knew all along what he was doing when He decided upon giving me a little girl, putting to shame my own desires for a little boy. And here in the dark, as you are starting to quiet down, you are teaching me lessons about Christ's love for His children in a way that is so evident. And you're only 3 months old!

I am blessed beyond words to have been given a gift of such magnitude in you, Savannah.


Now, you have fallen asleep and I lie listening to one of my favorite sounds, your little baby snores. I want to wake you up just so I can spend time with you and once again I am reminded that Christ longs for us in the same way.

Thank you again, my little beautiful reflection of Christ!

-Your mommy